Way too many bad things happening at the same time. I will never forget. It's all gone now. I'm really happy. But talking about this year always leaves a bitter taste on my mouth.
So I can say that in many ways, I'm so looking foward to what's coming next. Simbolically but mainly psichologically, the 1st of january will have such an important meaning to me. Nothing much will be happening. I agreed with friends we'll spend new year's eve in our pjs, having some healthy lentil soup, a fresh fruit salad as dessert maybe?, watching films, playing games. I think it's good to be doing what you really wanna do, instead of just what "society" tells you to do. to hell with fireworks, with loads of food waste, loads of money spent in booze. I want peace inside of me, surrounding me and the people i love. I am looking foward to that too.
I had a lovely christmas time. with friends over, a nice dinner and such special presents. Just forgot to take a picture!!!!!!!!!! which is ironic, eh?
Last week I had a real fright. I wasn't feeling great for a couple of hours, but decided to have a bath before going to bed anyway. during bath time my heartbeats started going really slow. I could hear the echoes in my head. it was almost as if I was getting suffocated with my heart in my throat. then the heartbeats started faster and faster, so loud in my head i despaired. I just remember standing up and trying to get some air. but the heartbeats were way too fast. I was still feeling suffocated. suddenly everything starts darkening and i faint on the floor, when trying to leave the bathroom for help. my luck was, when I fainted, my back hit the radiator, which had been on for a couple of hours. i burn some of my back and leg. what the hell.
I don't remember having gone through a fright like that. ever. I'm still not sure what that really was. but it could be high blood pressure. whatever it was, it made me a little bit more awake. I mean, for some weird reason, it made me really want to do things and actually do them. I won't be exactly listing them, but you get the idea. I've finally bought a new camera. which im not sure when will be arriving, but hey. no hurries. so long waiting for it, one or two weeks won't make a difference. It is not an SLR as I wanted and it is not a nikon either, but I think that for what I want to do just now, my new one will do the trick. I'll post a picture of it when it arrives!
I'm also updating my official website tomorrow.
Wishing you a very nice delicious sexy 2008. may this new year be great for all of us. much art and love in your heart.
xxxxx
melissa.
