New week. Brand new sleep patterns. I've been finding hard to keep awake for more than 2 hours straight. I sleep 4, then wake up and keep my eyes opened for a short period of time. I'm hoping this will no longer be happening by the end of the week. Where has all that energy gone?
On sunday I move in with friends for I don't know how long. some work will be getting done here so I'll have to clear the place before monday comes. I've been so slow these days that I don't mind all the packing work as long as I can have my wine and some music while doing it. As long as I don't fall asleep while doing it.
Talking to a friend the other day made me think about little things about my personality I hadn't thought before. I feel extremely shy, super self-defensive in many situations, I'm over protective and really quiet when I'm being myself. But then, there's this thing about being on control that really drives me nuts. I don't mind taking orders as long as I know where I'm going. I'm terrible at following directions but don't mind people telling me where to go. as long as I can do it my way. Now moving out for a few weeks it's not a problem. But not knowing when I'll be back is a big deal. Plus not knowing how about other hundred little things that are going on right now don't make things easier.
In the meantime, I'm taking my time to get to know people around me more. Eventful days. It doesn't mean it's bad or good. But I can feel this all will have an effect later on at some point.
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